I realize you probably don’t have a say in a lot of these things at the moment, considering how crazy the whole situation is, but I still would’ve tried to push for you if our roles were switched.
I’m not the type of person who imposes themselves on others, but if and when things change, this acting shit needs to stop. I’ve got bigger and better ideas for the both of us (stuff that we can both do together, things that I’d want to include you in always!)
This is why I am disappointed and upset. If I were in your position, I would have actively fought to have been able to include you in the fun and cool shit I get to do. I realize you probably don’t have a say in a lot of what’s going on, but a legitimate answer would be nice and expected.
I am hurt. The longer I go without a legitimate answer, the more hurt I get and the more I just want to burn all bridges and destroy everything. As the song goes, I’d “rather give the world away…”
So yes, I would throw it all away just to watch you continue doing the acting thing, getting negative press, and being an unremarkable irrelevant non-factor in the greater scheme of things, because that’s just how upset I am and have been over how this whole plan has been playing out.
The wig looks cheap and tacky, the casting is awful, and Lauren is just another dumb transplant from Ohio with nothing of value to offer us natives.
You can let her know that I said all of that shit. I have said worse things about people from Ohio. Shitty stupid impressionable transplants from the Midwest have completely ruined our entertainment industry and they should be well aware of that.
Honestly, God bless Mike Pompeo. A SoCal native who is smart and probably knows more about English literature than Lauren does. Shakespeare for the win!
Also you shouldn’t have to worry about me. I’ve planned a whole week of shitty Vegas shows to watch. I’m not really excited though; only did it because I don’t want to die of boredom watching this awful plan pan out.
Like I was typing before my phone died on me…
I don't care if my words are harsh, and I sure as fuck don't care if you've been in on this plan for the past 3+ years doing things just to try to impress me. I am disappointed, I am upset, and I hate waiting (this is not my fault, since I have not had a say in how this poorly executed plan was concocted). I have a habit of burning bridges and expunging the factors in my life that have ceased to benefit me, so just know that I will not hesitate to end things with you. I am just that petty and I will move on. I have already made a complete fool of myself this past year and totally isolated the individuals that have mattered to me the most. Never in my life have I ever experienced such profound loneliness and unhappiness. I constantly think about how I would just like to cease existing. There is nowhere on this planet that I would like to live, or that I can even imagine continuing to live my life in a way that has meaning to me. All my relationships with friends and family are ruined. I have nothing to lose. Do you understand how I feel and why I feel this way? I repeat myself: I have nothing to lose.