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no I am not enjoying the show. I get upset often and this sucks! I hate when I get upset and short sided. I hate when I don't understand the bigger picture and frustration or anger sets in. I hate that I formulate an opinion of an upcoming event and it doesn't happen. I hate that I feel afraid. I hate that I see people dying to promulgate an agenda. I hate that I feel alone among my family and friends because they don't research anything. I hate that I can't speak freely at any time in a day without fear of backlash. I hate fighting with myself to remain steadfast and hopeful. I hate that my research desire is driven by a need to feel safe and if I could just find the answer I could keep me and my family safe. Roll the fucking credits! I hate this show, my popcorn is rancid! But I will be back tomorrow just the same because God wins or I die!