No, you're locked into a cult like mentality from an anonymous poster on the internet. Welcome to reality. You're being led along with falsehoods and crap that jump from topic to topic and you are reinforcing your faith in it by hallucinating that anyone speaking ill of it is a monstrous enemy. Holy shit, I cant believe this is happening in this day and age but I guess human mentality doens't change. This is classic cult stuff. What in the fuck.