Thanks for the response. It's been driving me crazy trying to talk to anyone about this stuff…
I'm going through an exceptionally difficult time right now, where I'm in a reclusive, lonesome place. Dissosiation has essentially become a comfort for me. Before I knew what exactly it was, I used to tell counsellors/docs that I could "turn off my emotion and feel nothing"
It's extremely taxing, feeling like you know so much, but no one wants to listen/feeling like there isn't much purpose. Too having sudden jolts of valor, grandiose, and extreme empathy.
Anyways, I'm going off again. Thanks for words and links , I've been having trouble finding people who don't have a PayPal donation attached to their site..