I am writing to apologize for the nasty comment I made concerning your relationship with Paul, and for calling you crazy last night. I know I have told you before that calling someone crazy is a very dismissive thing to say to someone, and I realize that it was wrong of me to say it to you, resorting to it only out of anger. I am not going to address the second text you sent me because it seems to come from a place of anger, clearly showing your lack of maturity, humility, and ability to take responsibility for your own actions.
You portray yourself as faultless victim, saying that I tried to “run that hateful shit” on you and that I was in a “bad/destructive mood” when I came by, when you are the one who escalated things with the mention of my ex. I was in no mood to argue last night and I was looking forward to seeing you, as I always do. Your bringing up of Matthew last night was definitely a low-blow intended to incite, and it worked.
The fact that you tried to justify the importance of the phone call with Jackie makes me see that you place her needs, wants, and self above my own. I do not care if Jackie works retail and has limited time to talk to you on the phone. I go to school full-time and work part-time during the week. I make time for my friends if and when I can, and almost always when they are in need. I apologize for not being able to attend to your needs this weekend, but I was in the middle of exams and trying to stay on top of my studies. If you and Jackie want to talk on the phone, then make plans to do it on your own times, not when you have already made plans with another friend. The excuses you make to justify your behavior show a complete lack of responsibility for your actions, a disregard for my feelings, and disrespect toward me.
I realize the fault of my flippant remark, and I apologize for that. I hope that we can overcome this situation, and that you can reflect upon what I have said, trying to view things from my perspective, instead of vehemently defending your actions.