I agree with you that we each have a part to play. I also want to see evil vanish from.our existence.
My situation is probably different than yours, but I've lost nearly everything , too. It's difficult when the people around us seem to cave or else don't understand us. My reward is from God and whether or not I get to enjoy it this side of eternity or not, I'm convinced I will still inherit it. Strangely enough your post has the number 1017 in it. Long before I knew people used numbers to figure out letters I noticed that a lot of important events relevant to my life happened on October 17. Then I noticed it on clocks. When I believed that God didn't love me anymore seeing that number made.me afraid. However, when I believed that God cared about me again seeing it encouraged me. It's only after looking at this board that I started to consider what "1017" meant. I don't know about anyone else but to me the numbers point to the letter JQ. Only to me it stands for the " Jesus Question ". When a person knows God, because he is born again through faith in Jesus all the events of his life work together for good. If you don't know God because you have not received His love as expressed in Jesus' death and resurrection then no matter how pleasant your time on earth may seem you are destined for eternal pain. Because I have received Jesus, I know that everything that happens to me will ultimately (If not immediately) turn out for my good. I hope you don't mind if I pray for you.