As a person who has PTSD over violent trauma throughout childhood and being estranged (willful choice), I feel like I can relate to military w/PTSD. Drawn to the military mindset all my life. SpouseAnon military background & active Marine offspring serving now.
Holidays are extremely painful, & I have to just learn how to dissociate in meaningful ways for what they 'should' be.
Knowing about the truth about so many holidays now helps.
Having time to distance from events helps me now to see that God allowed me to go through such pain (at the hand of evil - not His doing) to help me see who He destined me to be, my purpose. With the QAnon movement, that meaningfulness has gained so much more weight.
May God be with you in the times of pain. May He reveal to you your purpose. May He give you comfort. May you be blessed with anointing in knowing deep down in the marrow of your bones that you are made for this time & you are needed to play a unique role in destiny.