Probably in the air anon. Holidays can have that effect (if your observing Thanksgiving). I feel the same way, and I'm even suppossed to join up with my two brothers, their wives and whoever else was invited. Good times. I'd rather have a bullet to the brain.
I'm so glum I'm actually looping a track called Nineteen by an artist I always make fun of (because I don't understand EMO music). That guy Lil Peep, who OD'd a while back. He did have a lot of people who liked him, I'm just automatically turned off by the lucerferian tats on the face, like his, tentaxiion (sic?) and this dork 6iX9ine that the cabal keeps pumping in our faces.
I'm profoundly down on my end anon. This too shall pass. It always does. I'm there with you, in spirit. Perhaps one day we'll all figure a way to meet. Most likely that will require even a modicum of money though, so perhaps it's best it's not tomorrow.
Be well.