I know where you coming from. I have known about most of this for 20+ years. Never telling anyone in real life anything because I thought the truth would never come out.
Then along comes Q confirming all the crazy bullshit you read about online and you know deep down inside this world will soon change.
We are at war, and our job as citizen solders is to make person sacrifices for the greater good. All the seeds you planted, all the conversations, all the fights with loved ones, all the friends/, relationships. time you lost, will be worth it in the end.
As soon as the rain starts, our seeds will grow. that was our first mission. the next one will be to calm them all down when they come running to us for answers.
good luck and stay strong.