Q, what is the plan for those of us with mental illness, we don't cope the same way others do and it's getting harder and harder for me to go by daily knowing all of this. I found God but I have a feeling I killed myself over the last decade with abuse and now it might be too late for me to even witness anything that is about to happen.
I'm crying at the moment, I never felt my place was here and now I've found God and I'm farily sure he's claimed me back. All I ever wanted was a place of peace for humans and maybe some explanation about why I had to live to suffer for most part of my life. I messed up recently and all of this is so hard, can barely concentrate, havn't worked in weeks now, I don't even know what I'm doing. I come here everyday hoping for the best, but it's always the same thing. Wait. I'm running low on time, health, money, sanity, last time I felt love was a decade ago and now she's married.
In the end I don't matter, all that matter is those who suffered real pain will be freed now. I wish I was able to last until all of this is over but I have a feeling we're not even half way in.