Agreed, that sometimes the test is to forgive yourself. Maybe you didn't know? Job didn't know either… All we can do is better next time. Every time I try to pull it all together, everything falls apart. KEEP. GOING.
Try cranberry pills. Yes, really.
I too have had this thought… That hypothetically, if someone with enough power WANTED to… They could make a whole world, just for you to lose your mind in. Keep calm frens, not alone. Many hoomans, many bots.