Thanks…yes, this song=my life.
I appreciate you sharing it, fren.
I am afraid that, due to certain very unfortunate circumstances, if this is the proving grounds & this is a test…that maybe I've failed it?
Wow, well that essentially answers my question.
So if I am indeed dead as I suspect (and as this translation suggests), how do I go about making it less miserable? Existence should have some joy in it…shouldn't it?
Yes, in fact it has already occurred to me that all the other anons in this room are the "larp" (no offense intended) and that I am the only one here who hasn't figured out that I'm dead yet….and you guise are just waiting around, making hilarious memes and kekking until I figure it out. No lie…I had this conversation with myself…a very long conversation, it was.
I have spoken to anons previously about having serious memory problems (and that same night we discussed the gifted/G.A.T.E. program), but I am sincerely not trying to slide in the sense that I'm trying to distract anons who are digging up important facts for qresearch, but let''s be honest, from the looks of it…ain't a whole lot going on in here aside from talking about muh joos and that never ending argument between anons & shills & other shills.
I'm here at 4am working midnight shift by myself, I have no friends or family to reach out to to discuss my existential crisis, so I come and discuss it here. If you feel I am sliding for nefarious purposes then kindly scroll by my posts and ignore me, anon.
I've honestly done little else than work my shitty job, drive to and from said job, sleep, eat the same thing breakfast/lunch/dinner for 6-12 months at a time, watch the same dvd's over and over again, lurk and absorb information on this board, and sleep. Sleep is my only refuge…except when it isn't. But that is the sum total of my life for the last 5 years, anon.
Explain, please.
I have been a Christian my whole life…and it worked out ok until I started considering the infinite possibilities of existence…not saying I don't believe in God or a Creator…there are just some discrepancies that don't easily resolve themselves. I have some faith but I am confused…I come here for knowledge and different points of view that haven't already occurred to me.
Perhaps…but this existence is tiresome..and extremely isolated. That's why I thought I may be dead; no one in the flesh here to prove me wrong. I may very well be having this conversation with myself instead of a few dozen anons. Solipsistic, maybe…but you are not in the desolate place that I am at the moment.
I'm truly glad to know I'm not alone in that respect…I know exactly what that feels like.
Thank you for sharing that…your summation is helpful.
Speaking of dreams, the last time I slept-Gen. Flynn was in my dream…as was a very futuristic-looking plane that started coming apart while it was still airborne…and I was on the ground with close to a hundred other people and we were all running and looking back trying to avoid getting hit and crushed by the falling pieces of the plane. It was frightening but somehow I managed to survive without getting hit by any of the falling wreckage. There was more to it but it's already washed out of my memory…as dreams often do.
I am lost, anon.
And painfully isolated for a very long time.
I now understand why people who are sent to solitary confinement for extended periods of time often go insane-if they weren't already insane in the first place.
I shall. Thank you, fren.
This makes sense to me.
Time does not technically exist; it's a concept we created and it's not linear.
I imagine space is similar if not the same as time.
..if that makes sense.
You've had severe memory problems-and you began taking cranberry pills-and it resolved your memory problems?
I will watch it, anon…I found it on youtube…but thank you for embedding it.
I also wonder if we really are in a matrix….more similar to the movie than we even realize.
I often think of Morpheus' line, …"real? How do you define "real"?….(and you know the rest, I'm sure)…but it's a valid question. What is real?
I'm reading each of these, anon. Even though they're meant for everyone-I am stopping and taking the time to read & reflect.
Exactly….so you know the inherent anxiety that comes with such thoughts, correct?
Could you elaborate a bit more, anon?
I'm interested to understand what you're getting at but I need just a few more….details, please.
Good answer, anon. That makes sense and is helpful. Thank you, fren,
Anon, I wrote down the title and I will research it…it definitely sounds like you understand what I'm thinking because you just typed out what I was having trouble articulating. Honestly, I am anxious to learn what you've learned, anon.
Exactly….one can go around and around forever with these questions….but I sincerely appreciate your feedback.