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If you perceive that your current incarnation has outgrown your higher self, perhaps you need to reevaluate the measure of your current enlightenment.
Your higher self has had a millennium head start on you and already wrote the play you are starring in.
Your current dilemma was arranged prior to your birth here, for your benefit in order that you learn what you previously had not.
I genuinely hope you can make sense of that.
A large part of the challenge is to determine exactly what it is that we are here to learn. It sounds like you have a very large clue at hand as to what this is.
Thoughtfully re-read your post with that in mind, and it just may become readily apparent to you why you are here.