>>4658158 (LB)

In my case I was "raped" (I was loved and treated tenderly by older young women when I was about 10), and then spent an active precocious sexual life as a kid.

I have been trained by Jesuit discipline in spirituality and mental fortitude, we learn to dance with the devil because we have the LIFELINE OF CHRIST.

Because of that, I have been able to delve well deep into the pit, and be seldomly shocked, but only confronted with my own history and human nature.

You do not become a cover agent for a drug cartel investigation if you do not know how to do drugs and survive them.

Know the limits of your depravity and keep Christ at your heart, HE will guide you to the best department of research for your own personal nature.

I am happy to having identified locations of victims found in some dark corners. And at some point…

To quote Nietzsche like you did:

"The advocates of a criminal are seldom artists enough to turn the beautiful terribleness of the deed to the advantage of the doer."

But then again CHRIST is your LIFELINE.

My TouchStone is Saint Augustine:

"8. What I have said so far applies to actions that are similar. When they are different, we find people made fierce by love; and by wickedness made seductively gentle. A father beats a boy, while a kidnapper caresses him. Offered a choice between blows and caresses, who would not choose the caresses and avoid the blows? But when you consider the people who give them you realize that it is love that beats, wickedness that caresses. This is what I insist upon: human actions can only be understood by their root in love. All kinds of actions might appear good without proceeding from the root of love. Remember, thorns also have flowers: some actions seem truly savage, but are done for the sake of discipline motivated by love. Once and for all, I give you this one short command: love, and do what you will. If you hold your peace, hold your peace out of love. If you cry out, cry out in love. If you correct someone, correct them out of love. If you spare them, spare them out of love. Let the root of love be in you: nothing can spring from it but good. …"

Again, in Nietzsche's words:

"LOVE IS BEYOND GOOD AND EVIL"

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One who loves wants the best for the Beloved.

This is really profound Alchemy, to turn your lead into gold.

Just in case another one has the chance to cross near the corners where humans are trafficked and are able to call an authority.

>>4658447

Dayum! my ID dubs won't let me lie.

Thank you for appreciating, most profane normaloids will lash out at me at the slightness suggestion of me getting into the rabbit hole, or even having honest to GOD feelings of love and nostalgia for an idealized childhood. They do not understand it takes a Vampire to hunt a coven of blood suckers. I feed on the blood of Christ, but GOD doesn't my heart melt for the beauty that can be found behind forbidden doors.

Now, exploiters, abusers, abducters, brainwashing figures of authority….

==BELIEVE ME, I FORGIVE THEM LIKE I BEG CHRIST TO FORGIVE ME FOR MY OWN SINS, AND SO I TALK STRAIGHT FROM MY BOTTOMLESS PIT, SHOWING THEM THE LIFLINE OF CHRIST. IF THEY ARE CYNICAL AND PSYCHOPATHIC LIKE THEY TEND TO BE… THEY DO NOT SIMPLY GET AWAY.

MY MOST DIFFICULT SPIRITUAL UNDERSTANDING TO ACHIEVE, OR RECONCILE, IS HOW TO SHOW A SOCIOPATH/PSYCHOPATH THE DAMAGE THEY HAVE DONE, IF THEY HAVE NEVER FELT EMPATHY? YOU DO NOT APPEAL TO THEIR SHAME OR HUMANITY, IN A SENSE… THEY ARE NOT HUMAN…

LIKE.. SAY… THOSE "CHOSEN ALIENS" WHO CALL US HUMANS "CATTLE" AND WHOSE RELIGIOUS OBSERVANCE INCLUDES THE RAVAGING OF 3YO "HUMAN/CATTLE" GIRLS. THEY DO NOT RESTRAIN FROM HARMING THEIR OWN OUT OF EMPATHY OR LOVE, IN THAT REGARD, THEY ONLY RESPECT THE SUPREMACY OF THEIR OWN, AND REASSERT THEIR SUPERIORITY UPON THE "CATTLE".

CHRIST IS A GOD FOR HUMANS.

YAH IS A GOD FOR REPTILE BRAINED HUMANOIDS.

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR RECOGNIZING MY EFFORT, BELIEVE A SINGLE LIFE IS WORTH A LIFE IN THE MUD, SAVING ONE VICTIM IS A REWARD FOR ETERNITY, BUT MAN… 8/10 GIRLFRIENDS I HAD WERE DAMAGED GIRLS/WOMEN WHO SURVIVED AS WELL, AND RESTORING THEIR HEARTS IS JUST SO MUCH BETTER THAN SEX (THO SEX IS ALWAYS BEST WITH THEM). THING IS… YOU JUST DON'T TALK ABOUT IT WITH ANYONE, EVER. NOT. AT ALL… AND SOMETIMES YOUR FAITH QUIVERS FLIMSILY, AND JUST KIND WORDS LIKE YOURS FILL ONE'S SOUL WITH PURPOSE AND PRIDE…