Much good advice from anons. Apart from the recommendation of suicide. There’s too much of that in the world.
My advice is to do something you love; tell those you love how much they really mean to you; and remember that you have an invisible family of misfits here that shares the same hopes, suffers the same frustrations, and needs the same periodic reconnection to our own lives.
Whatever the future brings, we are together in spirit. May God have mercy on us and bless us; deliver our homelands (wherever those may lie around the world) from all evil; and refine to some purer form all that makes us who we are today, and who we may yet become.