>>4710808 last bread
I feel for you, dude - don't give up though.
Use the trim tab…change yourself, the world ain't gonna help. What you need is a different outlook. Get out and do vigorous exercise. Every day. Burn off that cynicism. Get ready for the next chapter of your life and be fit doing it. Engineers are in demand, find out where and go at it hard. You'll be ok. You're a lot better off than most people.