>LIGHTS ON
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I never made the decision on my own to get sober/achieve life change until Q put TRUST in me, as if they knew something about myself that I didn't.
///At the time, abobocool, breadbox, 8bit, pamphlet, Ultimateshitlord, Reign and several others were all trying to figure out who can trust who, who had the skill necessary for the journey ahead, and who we should keep an eye on as a liability.. [Scouting prospects/enemies]
>>>after a couple left turns, I started running the cbts stream discord.. and to be brutally honest, my critical thinking was often too floppy to focus and operate without blabbering some off the wall nonsense due to sleep deprivation, being intoxicated, and NEVER meditating beforehand.
I was also having an extremely hard time convincing my nan that I was hand picked to be a commander of what will be known as the the 2nd American Revolution, and that all the struggle will be worth it in the end, bc I see the bigger picture, etc.
She thought I was nuts.
[[Still using meth, heroin, and drinking heavy at the time… she had no reason to think anything different]]
I am the ONLY ONE who had the ability to fix this.
I made a post on /cbts/ "I got sober for this shit Q," on my 4th day without heroin. Not that I was quitting.. I just didn’t have the 60 dollars or transportation to Atlanta.
It got a (You)…and immediately my commitment went down in history [biggest Intel drop in US History]. I made a heartfelt statement, and Q held me to my word.
Later that week..
I imagined this:
What if I relapsed, i never got back on track my life went back to where I came from.
and then my nephew learns about Q/The GreatAwakening when he's in highschool history class..
Looking ahead, nephew has ONLY 2 outcomes.
A] yes, that's my uncle. I was 3 years old when this happened.. and those are my first memories I EVER had of him.. memories of joy,
Learning/watching Blippi… He was the first person who showed me how to turn an idea into reality, drawing scavenger hunt games, cardboard hotwheel ramps then building them using junk around our house.
"I always anticipated his presence to the point he could convince me to do things that others thought to be impossible. ((Eating))
..He is a police fbi guy now, and has saved millions of lives from deaths grip. He's my hero."
OR
B] nephew feels nervous/ashamed to speak about me. …bc if he did, he would have to say
'My uncle started using drugs again.. and it distracted him from the Promise. I sometimes wonder what he could've achieved from that opportunity if only he had taken Q serious. You would think he had learned his lesson about opportunities the first 3 times he let them pass. But at least I learned from his mistakes.. bc I dont want to become a symbol of ridicule/failure like he did.
[[The President give him 7 personal reasons to Believe, and gave the WORLD 7 major proofs Q was legit/truth… yet he still chose his own demise]]
This SPARKED the miracle.
No matter what chaos/pain happened to me throughout the day, i could take A quick deep breath and refocus my awareness on the promise.
I BELIEVE I WILL BE A LEGEND FOR GOD'S GLORY.
I BELIEVE I AM MADE FOR MORE.
I BELIEVE I can put myself in a strategic position where I can USE my mistakes, as a weapon..to prevent those who look up to me from making the same mistakes.
But only if I CHOOSE TO WRITE THE HISTORY RIGHT.
The choice will be mine.
Will I get a medal of honor from the President?
Will I be used by God to influence/empower the youth?
Will I heal my mind soul and body, get in shape, get positioned to recieve and be a walking testimony of the "Power in the Blood"…?
Will i convince my family that GOD IS NOT DEAD? Or will I be the reason they lose hope?
The choice will be mine.
Life give me a crown of thorns, but if I can somehow sprout a LIVING Lilly, out of what people thought to be surely dead, the miracle of it will encourage those around me..
"If a piece of shit like farmerfunkk can do it… I know I can!"