Pray for me Anons

Three months ago I was sitting at my job and in rapid decline both mentally and physically. I knew that I was rapidly approaching death, but was so burnt out that I had no desire to fight it off.

Something Changed. I was saved from death for a reason and that journey has brought me to a place that I know for a special purpose.

My wife refuses to believe that God has saved me from death. The new me, the one that no longer questions my self worth, is not acceptable to her. She wants the old me back. She wants total control of my destiny, which is to be locked away and under the control of mans institutions.

I have three children that I love even more than myself. I can not imagine my life without them, but I can not progress in my journey with a wife that will not support me. She has no reason to believe I would ever hurt her, yet she stomps around waiting for vindication to put me away forever, trapped inside her web.

If She is not willing to take just one step beside me then I will not be able to stay with her. I’m afraid because I don’t know what life looks like without having the ability to see my children. I’m afraid they will be convinced that it was me that destroyed the marriage and they will despise me for it.

I want her to be made whole, but that’s a choice I can not make for her and it doesn’t appear she will make that choice for herself either.

Please pray for Peace within me while this process plays out. I accept whichever ending this ultimately leads to, but the pain of separation is real nonetheless