This, it's both humiliating and revolting, to be the subject of these delusions. Most days it's really easy to trust, but I'd be lying if I said it was always easy. Especially here, because so many of us have been through the 4chan crucible, and if nothing else that place teaches us to "trust, but verify." To be sure, Anons here have verified, and this led to trust. But during the long dark, it's hard to not worry, at bare minimum. Meanwhile all we can do is dig, and dig, and dig some more, and hope some of it, in some way, adds to our understanding of this crazy, fucked up Shadow War.