As many have said here.. how they went from atheist to christain..

I feel the same bUT a little different.

I grew up catholic.

Did Sunday school and all that.. fïrs communion but stopped going to church when I was around 8 or so..

This whole thing with Q really has brought my FAITH back but not trust in the Bible or any holy text.

It is hard for me understand God.

is God the universal conciousness?

What God is right?

I feel the oneness with everyone and everything but it is so hard for me to put trust into a name or a text such as a God or Religion or Book.

And I've been here since the start.. understand it all..

But what gets me is I'm not American. I am Canadian.

Why am I here?

Why have I spent the last 5 years looking into all of this?

Why was I on ADHD meds my childhood and why do I question these things that nobody in my family does?

Why did the conditioning not work on US?

Not even military conditioning worked… The discipline yes but… just why?

if there is a God why am I in this predicament?!