The info Q has dropped made me as well review my feelings on "God".
Grew up Catholic, they preached more about being afraid of the wrath of God then anything else. Had a rough childhood, bad things happened, was around some evil adults, Long story short, I ended up hating this God that they spoke of, I was to be afraid of him rather then actually love that he loved me. Cried out for him many times and he never showed up. I become atheist at age 9.
After researching what Q has been dropping , realized those fuckers wanted me to become an atheist. They also wanted me to worship and pray to their fear God and not the God who loves us. I have reconnected with God and we are speaking now but Im still taking it slow and Im sure he understands why.