I was always smarter then everyone around me even though I was not a good student. I was what many would call ADHD today but in fact, everyone, especially my teachers bored me. I am very dyslexic and will never enjoy reading and I have trouble writing due to a severe hand-eye coordination problem.

My classmates teased me. I never fit in anywhere. God cursed me with a high IQ and a very low EQ. I have begged him to explain why he made me this way and I get nothing. Even teachers bullied me.

I still don't understand why people never liked me. I was a star athlete and could have gone all the way to the olympics but my coach didn't ever take an interest nor did my parents so I gave up on that.

I am currently the best at what I do mostly by my own doing although I had some excellent training. I am no longer fulfilled by it because I believe that I have taken it as far as I can. I could teach and if I could generate interest, I could make far more money than I currently do except for that damn low EQ thing. There really is no place in this world that I can feel challenged, useful, engaged, and appreciated.

I feel that even God has abandoned me and the only reason that I haven't killed myself is that it is the cowards way out and I am no coward.

>>5119485

I can only say these things here because I can't let on publicly how much I am hurting inside.

>>5119481

I have seen and experienced the possessed but yet most churches no longer want to talk about casting out demons.

>>5119771

Spoken like someone who also deals with the curse.

Invisible pain is the most difficult.

>>5119757

In time, I am 53 years old and only getting angrier with God for making me this way. I have accepted my social status but am not given the opportunity to apply myself. I can't get any free time when I am not exhausted and desperately in need of rest to pursue something more challenging.

Don't express your real pain here, the shills will jump all over you. It must be wonderful to go through life with such simple thoughts. Muggles will never understand the pain that comes with a high IQ.

Go fuck yourselves!

>>5119899

Fucked up my whole life due to indecision and wanting to belong. I can fix anything mechanical so I got that going for me.

>>5119929

Not really looking for advice, just venting some pain. Can't do it publicly.

>>5119967

Thanks, but you would tire of me if we were friends.

>>5120071

Wrong, knowledge is always useful and credentials, although they can be made up, lend credibility to statements.

>>5120127

I'll play. English was not your first language, that's my first hint. Give me another.

>>5120154

So do I, still wondering.

>>5120157

That's cool, all I can speak is American English and Southern.