red pill early 90's, was content on just learning, now most of those i know from my life are either sick or dead from active service, or the va is trying to kill us, a friend of mine was pushed over the edge a few years back and tried to take his own life, spent many years on high doses of painkiller, fentanyl 250 micro grams an hr after six months of that almost killing this person, they put him on 245 mg of morphine sulfate 3x a day, needless to say he almost lost his mind, tried to kill himself a few times, his liver had shut down from years of high doses of painkillers, not meaning to ramble on just saying this shit (((they))) did to him and the shit (((they))) are doing to the ones i hold close, i couldn't stay asleep anymore, had to get back into it and have been here awhile. i do believe these boards are helping many who thought they where loosing their minds