Man, I'm tired. Not even related to this board, or what Q is doing. I'm just tired of life being the way it is, the injustice, the ruthlessness, the selfishness and selfish ambition, the incessant competition, of having to be someone to be respected or thought of as worthwhile. I'm tired of all evil. Of media, of pop music, negative news, of being bombarded by negativity and strife. I'm tired of evil. Maybe I'm oversensitive because some people just seem to thrive in this environment. When I go to sleep I'm tired, when I wake up, I don't look forward to the day.
It's not as simple as that. It's not about being tired of this board. It's about waking up, shit news already everywhere. Sit in the car, on radio listen to some pop song with incoherent lyrics about love, followed by another song with tthe same theme, accompanied of course by highly sexual moaning of the female singer, devaluing the term love into whatever you fancy at any given time. Then you drive past a house-sized bra commercial with a woman in a sexual pose looking at you suggestively. Then someone decides to drive right behind you and getting nervous if you don't get out of the way even though he is speeding considerably. You get to work where you're pressured on one side by your boss, no financial security, no job security, you're expendable, your skill isn't unique so at any time you can be let go. On the other you're pressured by clients who feel like they can either humiliate you because they're paying or are irrate themselves due to their own financial problems. You've been working your ass off but the promotion goes to someone who is better at socializing than you are and sucking the superior's dick (literally or not). You drive home, you have to pay the taxes, maybe you don't even have enough to pay all the bills this month. On TV somebody is being blown up, or people are having sex again, or you hear news about the latest fraud enriching select few individuals knowing full well that there will be no justice since if they're big enough they likely have influence among judges and the establishment. Your wife or husband is nervous because the lack of financial security is up in the air, maybe you couldn't pay a bill, fighting ensues due to nervousness. Your son or daughter listens to it and feels guilty about it and is already being exposed to psychological damage at a young age. You go to sleep and repeat this the next day. You lose your job, or have an unexpected large expense come up, or something similar and you're basically done. You hope that your family doesn't hate you while a song about banging hoes and making money is playing. You hope you have no debt, or your situation is even worse. This ain't right. Living in a jungle and hunting animals is better than this kind of "civilizational" achievment. This is what I mean when I say I'm tired, though not all of this applies to my situation, some does and I look around and I see this is a situation many people find themselves in. This ain't right to me.