While your idea of fractals of God maps to certain ancient esoteric principles, you are missing the real key: How to participate in that Divine Nature.
It can be done, I know from experience. There are many Ways, only a few are authentic. You seem to be blessed in that you have good instinct for it, perhaps a 'magnetic center' even.
A man must 'die' in order to be born so that he may live.
But first, in order to 'die' he must awake.