We know exactly how you are. In high school I got exposed to so many redpills on the secret societies, Bill Cooper, 9/11 and just so many things and I was constantly ridiculed for trying to wake people up. Not just from friends but your own family makes fun of you, meanwhile our leaders continued to plunder this world to the ground every focused on meaningless drivel while all the real issues were nonissues. Finally I just gave up - I followed the "ignorance is bliss" and started ignoring it all because it was just too much to swallow and I couldn't handle it.
Trump changed everything, he gave us all hope. One man sacrificed literally everything to save the entire world in the face of the greatest opposition the world has ever seen. The wikileaks scandal, pizzagate and now the Q movement put me back on track, this time with the glimmer of hope that these people will be held accountable. Plus it is literally the only interesting thing going on, and the only REAL thing going on.
You are not alone anon.
WWG1WGA!!!