You prey for God to give you strength.
Look around you, we are at WAR!
It's GOOD vs EVIL.
God needs you! to give Him strength,
God needs you! to be physically capable of defending the good in the world.
God needs you! to be sober of mind and capable of defeating the evil in the words.
You say you prey every single day but fail! WHO are you to make that judgment?
"It's as if God doesn't even listen to me…"
God is weeping for you, He has no words, He needs your Love and He needs you to overcome this demon in your life. He has given you this battle to win! OUR HOLY FATHER HAS GIVEN YOU COMMAND OF THIS BATTLE YOU FACE!
You have my prayers Anon.
God is with you!