I've already posted this on general thread, will post here, see what else I can learn.

Hi anons.

I believe I was abducted in 2014, I got this exact same (PIC 1 NOT MY PICTURE, but same shape) pattern in both of my hands (PIC 2 shittily made in GIMP just to illustrate), and it was as if the dots were "pressed" against my skin, you know like when you're holding/pressing onto something or laying over something and you get the same pattern of the surface "indented" in your skin. and that kind of markings usually disappear in a couple minutes. Mines lasted like for 3-4 fucking days.

Story goes like this: I remember that night I had a dream about sliding down a gigantic metal slide with several bifurcations. I woke up and went to my usual working out routine and suddenly I got all dizzy. Went to a friend's restaurant and grabbed some sweet juice to get better, got nausea, and when I was in the restroom washing my hands that's when I noticed the fucking marks. I panicked and got all paranoid and told my dad only (and a close friend in that year). I got some xrays of both of my hands cause I feared I had an implant or something. Nothing was found.

So, I don't know if I was abducted but that's what it seems like isn't it, woke up with unexplainable "pressed" red marks that don't go away in several days, there was NO SURFACE with that pattern I was in contact with at that time (or at any point in my life that I recall).

I believe I've been messed up with by external entities, not saying aliens, I really DON'T KNOW what the fuck happened to me. My mom has been having also ET and UFO experiences through all her life also, I don't know if we are targets, experiments, fucking cattle, I don't know, my life is fucking full of emotional issues, I'm dealing with pain and the shit and whatnot… feel like I've been lead astray.

just as a side note, curiously, I remember that, at that approximate time I was reading a Donald Trump book and several times when reading it, I felt like I was supposed to be reading it, I actually had this gut feeling that he was going to run for president, I just "knew" he was going to do it, I've experienced so many fucking "coincidences" or synchronicities or whatever the fuck they are, I believe I was supposed to be helping here but something went WRONG or something like that.

I know this is not the right venue but this is the closest I have to "someone who will understand and maybe give me some hints on what to do" I'm probably doxxing myself out with this story but what the fuck, I don't give a shit at this point, I'm a complete life fuck up, I'm desperate and need answers.

Q, NSA, white hats, Autists, whoever can share any piece of useful advice will be appreciated, sorry for wasting this precious piece of bread, didn't mean to distract, I respect this place. I just want to understand why am I going through everything I've been going in my life, get my life back on track and HELP others. I want to help here. I hope it's not too late. I want answers and fix myself so I can help others.

Thank you in advance if you can share anything.

Thank you all of you who are making this world a better place. Blessings.

>>5727228

aren't I a stupid fuck I forgot pics again

>>5727786

Thanks for your words, they are appreciated. it seems I also feel a little better by putting this shit out there. Be well fren.

>>5727241

>>5727228

abducted anon here, changed browser session, I thought it was not going to be necessary to correct my stupid clumsiness, but I made that one pic wrong, I apologize,

this was actually the right place wher I found the marks

>>5727786

also, mate, can you share what you call your own experiences?

>>5728420

I don't understand, do you mean someone entered in my room in the middle of the night or somehow got me out and made me some acupuncture? apologies if I'm not getting it.

>>5728932

>>5728932

>Backing out of this issue now.

may I know why? mate, that sentence left me more baffled than before, I don't know why.

what is that you find "interesting"?

Can you at least point me a finger to where I could learn more about … what I should do? I don't want to be evil and I'm tired of "suffering".

Anyways, I really appreciate what I perceived as your intention to help me. Have a good one, mate. be safe.

>>5729240

not that I recall.. why?

>>5730395

>diamond shaped, not American,German or Chinese

further detail, I'm from Mexico. My mom also is.

I deeply appreciate all your replies. Will look further into past breads. I don't know why but I am in tears now. It just feels so well and weird at the same time, to be taken seriously. can't even type I feel like words clutter in my head.

I wish I could pay you or something just because you took me seriously. I'm going to re-read everything you typed. THank you from the deepest of my self.

>>5730698

>>5730721

Thanks mate, I think I'm fine medically, sometimes I feel like literally my limbic system is hijacked and lose control and get angry af. Haven't had xrays of head or neck…. demon problems, I don't know what a demon is, mate, so I don't know how to respond. sometimes I feel like I was part of the good guys in the past and now I'm an evil piece of shit.

I wish you the best with your machine and in life. your comments are highly appreciated. much love.

>>5730863

shit I'm still crying.

maybe I'm afraid to admit that I have demon problems because I fear them, I don't know. how do I know if I have demon problems?

>>5730411

>choose what you want, not what you don't want.

I will do this. I thank you.

>>5730425

you don't know how many, if not all, the things you wrote resonated with me. Thank you anon.

And thanks to everyone. Thank you to all.

>>5731359

hehe I appreciate very much all of the clarifications. And after reading them I'm still in agreement with what you wrote.

>anon asked about head and neck because common place for implants

totally understood,

I knew (or felt) I was going to cause confusion with the brevity of my replies. I should've separated my paragraphs, now that I'm re-reading them I see my wording as prone to misinterpretation. I was just kind of distracted by my crying and wanted to type fast. I feel way better now. waaaaaay better.

I have discussed my mental health concerns with a professional psychologist and also my physical concerns with medical doctors. I'm currently not feeling the need to consult a curandero, not saying I won't, but I will consider it.

>The goal, I think, is to find a way to do good…

also agreed. I guess it goes hand in hand with choosing what I want. I'm currently cleansing myself from my old self-destructive habits and eating well and exercising and overall focusing on bettering myself.

lastly, I know where I am chatting and I know anyone can be behind the "anon" post. I wouldn't change my worldview just because of what an anon poster said, not even because of what a best friend or loved one could say. My skepticism is so high that it oscillates between being a strenght and a weakness. Fortunately I completely understood when you said it (choose what you want, not what you don't want), it really resonated with me. it seems you understood me very well.

Every time you reply I feel more and more you are truly, truly genuine.

I can't thank you enough for what you have shared. I will pray so the universe rewards you for what you have shared with me. Thank you again.

>>5731359

Also, I know I'm probably sounding like a teenager who has no direction in life (and I probably am, emotionally), but I'm way past my 20's now, so don't worry about misleading a young one. I will seek for due help in due circumstances. I'm probably just in a temporary bad place in life or something. I just came here because as I said, this is the closest I got to "someone who will understand".

Anyways, shills aside, you and other anons seem to be knowledgeable, and I'm still open ears/eyes and willing to learn, so anything else you consider you might share, will be welcomed and pondered.

Be blessed.

jan 2018 I had my first lucid dream ever. at the end of the dream I saw a very shiny, colorful eye of ra over my room's wall.

in other news, I've also had these dreams where I'm in the company of "real life friends", but can't help having this gut feeling that they're not them, but actually other entities wearing "skin costumes" of my actual friends and pretending to be them. They have this weird "look and feel" that kinda "blow the whistle" and let me know that they're someone else wearing these skin costumes trying to make me believe they're my actual friends.

The last time I had one of these dreams, this "real life friend" was visiting me in my room and he communicated me something along the lines of "I feel ready" or something like that. I responded with something along the lines of "yeah, I feel like you're ready" or something. Coincidentally, days after that dream, in real life, this friend actually told me that he saw his first UFO ever.

It feels like these costume-wearing entities are trying to convince me of something, or trick me into something. otherwise why would they be wearing these costumes?

weird stories, don't know what to make up about them exactly. thougths?

>>5748233

additional notes, sometimes our interactions seem wordless, like we communicate through feelings or hunches, and I always deny what they offer/ask me.

>>5748315

>sometimes our interactions seem wordless

I should rather say Always instead of Sometimes

>I always deny what they offer/ask

well, except that one time I told my "friend" that "I also felt he was ready".

Ready for what, I don't know.

>>5750618

I wanna know, please tell. what do you mean by broadcasted?

>>5750618

>>5750625

nevermind I know what you mean I just read your earlier posts

>>5751682

>Q, what is your view on cannabis

I asked once in the general thread and some anon told me Q said it was for lazy people.

Anyways, piece of personal advice: the plant is a tool. use it as a tool. LISTEN TO IT. There is probably a point where you should stop. If you're using it daily, most probably you should stop. even most probable if you feel you have to address any personal/emotional issue. sobriety will help you clear your head. pay attention to changes in your life before and after 90 days sober. I'm no expert or anything, just an anon that did that to see how it felt.

LISTEN TO THE PLANT. it will tell you if you're not using it correctly, or probably even abusing it. it is a wonderful plant. it just needs to be treated with respect, as well as your brain and endocannabinoid system need to be treated with respect. Give yourself a break. As other anon recommended, choose what you want, not what you don't want. be safe fren.

>>5756947

Also, I read somewhere that it might be possible (in some cases) your energy is currently higher than the energy provided by the plant, and instead of getting high with it, you're actually getting lower than your natural vibe, hope it makes sense. just my 2 cents.

>>5760030

>Human Trafficking, Drugs and Criminals of all dimensions - KEEP OUT!

that was pretty straightforward

>>5776538

thank you anon. I'm in awe of what you guys are doing.

>>5776026

sorry didn't mean to slide, felt identified bcos I too asked the same in general thread. weed is important for us stoners. not smoking anymore tho.

>>5777477

I know that's why I'm in awe, I've seen all the effort you are doing with your webpages. I said it in plural because other anons are also working by themselves in the diggings and the memeing and all that. I wish I was half as helpful as you all are. All my respect to you anon.