Kek!
"but im not patient and have doubts at times."
Doubts because you are not patient. Patience is a virtue, anon.
I know the waiting is hard on us all. All that know the true, or some level of it, I am sure find it almost unbearable, at times. I know I do.
I understand. Life goes on, anon. You just need to get exercise as well. Keep yourself in shape mentally and physically for what is ahead.
I know what you are saying, anon. But it is hard to say what really will happen. It is hard to imagine the shock they will have, but there might be ways that we don't know to help them.