This is the only place I feel comfortable saying this, but I'm depressed. Really depressed. The only reason I'm staying alive is because it would be hard on one person close to me if I weren't. I'm glad all this stuff is happening, and it's helping me a lot. I'm scared to go to a psychologist though because I don't think they have anyone's interest at heart but their own. I still haven't figured out what all the psychologists have in common that worked with the mass shooters, and that makes me nervous.

Thank you Q for posting about the Island recently. Part of the reason I'm depressed is I've known about the evil stuff for a long time, and I don't just mean the corruption stuff, I mean the evil stuff. I just don't know where to turn but here. I've only ever seen evil people do well in my personal life and it's taking its toll on me. I know it will change, but right now it's hard. Sorry for blogging.