<legendary hacking crew
Oh please.
On a random note, I'm on the verge of ending my life, anons. Haven't been able to keep or find a job for over a year. Family calls me a loser while finding solace in ganging up on me to shit on me with words. They know it doesn't work most of the time so they keep talking outside my door loud enough to hear. These are the people who didn't give a fuck about Q and are now watching YT videos everyday about it as if they found out about the movement themselves. This is suppose to be family. Fucking hilarious. I saved their life multiple times when each of them left the stove on with food to the point of creating small fires. TWELVE TIMES. I regret turning off the burners every single day. Even when telling them, they shrug it off and continue to shit on me.
Any time I try to buy groceries, they shit on me more saying I don't contribute enough. My old man took out a mortgage on the house and now he has a $3500+ house payment because he gambled it on the stock market without learning basic technical analysis. Laugh at me when I mentioned crypto and now his precious stock market is moving towards it and I can see his rage growing. They all keep talking shit about me. Even my sister who pumped her kids with vaccines and they just look dumb comes over to talk about something they all have in common: hating me
Keep in mind, years ago they all asked me for money. I was published, successful and was still judged because I didn't find hopium in a church of lukewarm christians who can't be bothered to help feed the homeless but think that slapping the bible around means they love the lord.
I'm absolutely out of energy and spirit with these people. They shit on everything I say or suggest but a week later, parrot back to me as if they were just enlightened all of the sudden. Part of me just wants to back a small bag and just walk until my legs get tired. I fucking HATE the suburbs. A dumb hive mind of people who have no idea what's going on. And now my little bitch brother is suggesting they kick me out while this fucker, 29 has spent every day of his life living at home and created a small online store for a car no one gives a shit about but has somehow convinced my mother that he's got his shit together. There's not a single homeless shelter around because it's the suburbs. I lived life away from them and made the dumb mistake of looking back when I made it out. I've been thinking about killing myself for months.
I just need some words of encouragement because I don't think advice at this point will actually help my situation. I'm so fucking tired, anons.
Being an autist doesn't help in this situation. I want to let it out and just beat them all senseless until I can't feel my hands anymore. I have the strength to stay calm but after internalizing it for 20 years, (I'm 31) I don't have any more space in my mind. Especially when I'm working on this Q movement. This honestly gives me peace. This is the only thing.
I know this is a dumb fucking movie but remember when Harry Potter gets shit on every fucking day? That's literally me, anons. I wake up in a hot & cold sweat every night. Get called out when I don't say good morning every goddamn morning to those who don't say a word back. I can't live like this anymore.
Right before they get the green light to bring the PAIN. What are the fucking odds? DS is cover every possible outcome (((they))) can think of. Too bad this is chess on checkers. Kek
I don't have the money yet…getting back pay from my old job…only $1500 because of levies. Should of been $3500 but the FED is still hungry. I would move out in a heart beat if I could.
I know, anon. I keep having this one step forward, 10 million steps back scenario every fucking week. No one knows the pain I feel everyday I wake up and go to bed. I've never felt this alone in my life. Seeing hatred in the eyes of those I was suppose to call family just pushes me to that edge of no return. I've thought suicide from time to time for the past 15 years. The life I had, I wanted but fucked that up the second "family" came into my life. Every fucking time. I think at this point, I'm just disappointed in myself for being in this position. Pray for me man. Seriously. Please.
Definitely need to surround myself with family of choice. Even that gets BTFO whenever I get back from a day/night of talking to people who want nothing from me but company. Funny thing is, the last few bucks I tend to have goes to buying lunch or dinner of a homeless person. People who just want to be heard. Like me. Like us. I haven't cried in years man and it just feels like I need a legit hug to let it all out. Fuck. I need peace.
No use at this point. As much as my old man just drools over YT videos of shit I tell him because I'm on here everyday. He'd rather watch some paytriot parrot it instead of listening to his own son. He knows I'll beat the shit out of him if he even thinks of stepping to me. In fact I think they all do so they just throw tomatoes and shit from a distance. No point in redpilling those who want to stab you in the back anyways.
I'm saving up my money to do this exact same thing, anon. Been thinking about it for a whole year. Can't find a job in my town after applying to everything so I'm trying to do stuff online for some money. I just need to get myself some wheels and I"m out. Counting down the days/weeks to make that happen…
Nice double dubs, anon. I'm going to give them a call before bed honestly. Might talk about the idea of leaving it all behind to them over the phone. I always felt like I was nomadic af because I never fit into any group. Just cried my eyes out because of you and the support from the other anons. Don't feel so fucked up…maybe I'm just tired atm.
Thank you, anon. Feels like I feel better because of all the prayers you and the others sent my way. Didn't think it'd work but damn. Love you, anon.
Sure hope so anons. I know we're almost there…just want peace. True peace.