PB - Might not be as perfect as you think. You remind me of my brother. He lost the fight 2 years ago to this day (relapsed and took xanex). The one that got away was completely devastated (though she was married with kids). She and I have become very close since, like siblings. Might be good to get things off your chest with her just to get a fresh start and put the past behind because honestly, you never know - looks can be deceiving.