'what inner voice we follow or act on'
how about understanding that a 'voice' might just be conjecture and something outside of the words is really in charge.
before you knew language you were a complete person.
understanding voices came after that.
If you had a bad weapon that was poorly designed and it cause you a lot of harm when you used it, wouldn't you not use it anymore? If you found out it was made of a toxic material? Or that it caused a lot more harm than necessary to fulfill the goals and purpose of the mission? Take heart because giving up a bad or immoral weapon doesn't leave you defenseless.
Why not give up a weapon that causes moral harm to the people around you? Like wouldn't it be nice if the Left would give up their immoral weapons of false consensus and censorship?
My guess is that you are over tired for some reason. My prescription is that you go back to bed for a while and wait for a better dream. Give up on the worry till the next day. "Suffice it to the day the evil that is therein"