"I can not imagine how…"
Your problem is that you're interpreting events through the lens of your own understanding! Once you come to understand who you are, who we are and the truth of our condition before The. Holy. God!, you'll continue to thrash inside a fog that is so dense it renders you blind! It really is THAT simple!
ALL of it! ALL of "this" comes down to the FACT, that "God Is"!
God Is God! And we're NOT! That's all anybody needs to know!
Thank God He IS a Good God! Let that sink in for awhile!