>>5947593 (pp)

Furthermore, because I so enjoy talking to myself….

Should I feel bad or ashamed for wanting to see something from the fruits of my labor… for once in my life?

How many of us share the sentiment from White Squall?

I don't want to end up nobody.

I don't want to end up alone outside of platitudes and having God as my only friend.

It's so noble to toil for the sake of the others.

Will it ever come back around?

It's never a truly self-less act. You want a better future yourself because you want to to be a part of the future.

Is it too much to ask for at least the amount of care you gave to everyone else?

There's giving of yourself and fucking yourself over.

And you're not so insignificant that you should put everyone/thing before yourself in that you become a social/emotional masochist.

And I shouldn't feel bad to asking this or wanting better for myself, especially if I've busted ass earning it.

This would be way easier if we had a larger chunk of 7billion working on it… but we don't.

We have a number of people that should make it statistically impossible to effect any kind of change… yeeeeet here we are!

>>5947913

Of course!

Another faceless anon in sea of "at least I give a shit".

>>5948006

You can do better with the tonal separation.

Finishing this thought process up…

I should just become aggressive in terms of self.

The world has never cared and I can't count on it starting.

Pretty sure this is true all around…

This is the final effort to shape the world into the positive place it should have always been.

It's not about ego… but no one, who didn't dedicatedly earn it, deserves to feel this meaningless and uncared for.

Yeah, I have all sorts of imaginary internet friends.

But I don't deserve to be alone and disregarded.

And if this doesn't change that… kek, I don't know what will.

I wouldn't give of myself if I didn't care… I'm a helpless romantic in terms of having a kind heart and being a good person.

I just… don't know how to top giving my all to make the world a better place, even for those who want to vilify me.

I'm not the only one doing this, I know… and none of deserve to be left behind when this is over.

Being alone isn't my fear.

Not being able to do literally anything to change that, is.

But hey… even if that doesn't change… I guess I can fuck off knowing things universally suck less cuz I had a part in it.

Doesn't alleviate the weight… just… I guess "justifies it".

A paytriot only does it when something is garaunteed.

I'm still doing this completely expecting to do alone and forgotten.

But I really realy hope that's not the best I can hope for.