>>5949871 (pp)
>>5949925 (pp)
-facedesk-
I expect nothing.
Be nice if something positive happened, but…
That's only going to happen when you least expect it…
Just gotta not give up before then.
-_-
I hope they don't pull a Q FF… but what's it going to take to force the Q?
Something fucking terrible, as usual?
Can we PLEASE break that cycle?
Can we just have… a positive thing, for once?
Believe me, I understand that this is the LAST place to turn if you're looking for support or someone to give a shit other than yourself.
But what's the point of praying if you truly believe that there's literally no one out there who gives a shit?
I'm a hopeless romantic.
I believe in positivity.
It HAS to be a thing.
Is praying really just a desperate hope?
A last resort?
"I can't effect change on my own due to needing others. Will someone, anywhere in the universe, PLEASE be the other? I can change as much as I can on my own… but without others… I can only do so much."
Oh… mang… the G-concept and I are part'n'parcel of the whole "living" bit.
But like God desired in the first place to not be alone in… well… infinity…
I seek "other".
If it were God's role to be that… I wouldn't be searching…. if that makes sense, to you.
Like… legit… I don't give a fuck what the Abrahamics try to convince me of…
I'm not "separate" from the Divine in a sense that's meaningful to me.
I have to exist somewhere to look for other(s).
Otherwise it's just Me and Existence… and no one else…
The very definition of being Alone.
I'm not so full of myself to think I'm on the same level as God… God is ever present.
God is… in the background making sure things don't fall apart on a mechanical level.
Too much interference would make this whole free will thing absolutely pointless.
It's not like I'm Satan wanting to be thanked for pointing out the Obvious/Baseline…
I'm just as much a person as those we're trying to save.
All the care flowing outward…
I need to replenish AT SOME POINT to continue giving.
I'm not looking to stop giving…
But I'm looking not to fuck myself in the process. -_-
If I run out while people still don't give a shit…
Then was it all in vain?
"Oh, maybe in a thousand years someone might care"….
Yaaaay… I got to suffer for others….
what a lot in life… especially to end up … empty.
At least everyone else got the benefit, right?
Even if I never get to see happiness or positivity…
At least the others who did absolutely nothing for it get to enjoy it, right?
I need a vacation.
But right now there's nowhere to go.
And going anywhere else accomplishes, magically, even less.
Truth be told… I need people.
I can do my own to do for however long I want to do it.. but… then what?
No one to enjoy it with…
No one to care outside of me and my personification of reality. -_-
I can understand as much as I want.
That doesn't make any of this less than of a solo adventure without others.
How many times can you play the 1-player campaign of an MMORPG before you're just… done?
"God/The Server recorded I was here! Yaaaay the concept of time/history!"
-_-