I want to see some punishment
Stop forcing red pills. It doesnt matter. Oh, I'm here but I am spiritual as a brick, meaning I FEEL nothing, i dont get synchronicity. I get NOTHING. When people start talking spiritual stuff they can ever answer my questions. It's just a bunch of bullshit to me. In short, you get it or your don't. Your spouse doesn't get it. Niether do I. However I believe people on a whole are greedy, mean, cruel, self serving evil fuckers. I am here to see them get their "rewards" in a way I can understand. I am angry because I have been fed lies and screwed over but I am also angry because I am also not being given a PROVABLE truth. I can see why others eat bullets over this. But my need to see this through is strong. and I have other lofer forms that depend on me.
it never ends…