and the first time I heard his name it was a friend and I was surprised because she didn't strike me as the MTV fan boy type and I was like "who is this Kurt, this Kurt Cobain? If he wants to be a Rock Star he must be an asshole." My friend told me and that he'd agree with me! She had been his friend for a few years. The Rock Star thing was totally unexpected.
I never got to meet him.
I like to think about how he lived!
not the other way.
He still lives if you know where to meet him in your dreams.
and the whole fetish of his death . . . let him be dead and remember his as he was when he was living. Think of him holding onto Mary Lou Lord as she rocketted him through the streets of Alston in the early AM on the back of her bycycle back to the motel.
let him be a force for life and living!
it is almost a rule here that if you want it too much it gets denied. It's a way to make you more disciplined and less needy.