God = lies + manipulation + broken promises
>so you gave prayer it a serious try?
you have no idea
my entire life was a prayer, sent up in love and praise and devotion
and God has done nothing but torture me worse than Job
and it never ends
never
no matter what i do
always promises
broken broke broken
nothing but more relentless suffering more than i can bear
that is what it's like to be His Daughter
Oh, I believe
I just know what He's really like
Cruel. Ruthless. Full of lies. A God who punishes the innocent and fails to protect the vulnerable.
God. Specifically. To me. Repeatedly. All broken.
And yes I'm very very very sure beyond any down that I've been speaking to God and not the enemy in disguise. This is far from my first rodeo.