I'm not seeing exactly what you're seeing, but, now, re-reading for possible comms….that last line, "He must go," really does stand out. He's the second most dangerous man (to them) and he must go. We know what they have wanted to do to #1. Hope Barr has excellent security.
Thoughts is new-agey BS. This world is an imperfect place, and evil has run rampant in it for too long. I, too, have had repeated disappointments, and while some of them might be my fault, others are not. Shit happens. But, you know what? It makes us strong, you and me. We don't have to look thru rose colored glasses. We can see, and the choice is ours….and we see. We are here because it matters, because our lives have not been cushy. You matter here, I matter here, and what is being accomplished matters for society as a whole. Hard to say how individuals will come out, but things have to be improved, and it takes strong people, who have been through some fire, to do it. Bless you, anon!