It's quite obvious to us lurkers, observers and Old Fags
that you are deeply in need of attention.
Ignored as a child, most likely having temper tantrums when you weren't coddled enough.
Exactly what you are doing here and on YouTube.
Crying out for attention.
When you can be "Anon" and get over yourSELF, you will have better results in getting attention.
Consider this wisdom and move on.