Anger, is a feeling every Anon here has experienced. It's ok to be angry Anon. Much is at stake.
Best advice, take some time away from the board, collect your thoughts, pray. Spend time with those that matter the most, re-center yourself and come back rested.
You are strong, that is evident; because you are here.
God Wins - and I know all Anons will be praying for you. I will be.
WWG1WGA