He compares himself to Judas, says he betrayed a trust and that a lot of hate is coming his way,mirror of an ancient story. Judas killed himself because he couldn't live with the betrayal.
The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want.
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.
He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever…Psalm 23
He's a person who traded his integrity for something else and then could not live with it.
Not sure, but appears Hanks had something to do with it.