I've put the most important person in my life at risk and now these fucking clowns are hurting me by hurting my disabled child. I can't live with that. It's ripping me to shreds. My child is suffering because of me. I am confused, scared, pissed as hell and can't stop the pain that's eating my insides alive. I need to pray and think. I have fought for so many years so hard for this country and feel a total, absolute fucking failure. I love my country, I love my potus but Q is not going to appear at my door to help me or my child and while QTeam is protected and safe, My ass is out there swinging and my child is hurting because of it. I love fighting the good fight, I love being on this winning team but can I justify my child's pain because of my actions? No, I can't. So I need to think, pray and find a tiny bit of peace to crawl into. If anything, I ask for prayers. Thank You