You got a lot of abuse for this post - but not from me.
I've been a through a similar journey and becoming 'Woke' shakes the firmament of your world. I could not go on living a lie & started to make changes & lost all i had. Wife didn't get it & got divorced. I gave up my career and now earn pennies. But I hold it was worth it to live by the Truth and not waste my life living a lie in someone else's service.
It's like Cypher's choice in the Matrix film - do you Blue Pill just to taste steak, or fight for the red pill because it;s Real ??
Remember friend, the time is soon coming when the masses awake & you have to prepare yourself to help them.
In the words of another Anon - don't be that Asshole that tells everyone I Told You So (you know who you are).
Take heart. We are many more than we used to be.