God bless anon."He who does not give up seeking will find." If you can check into any books or audiobooks by Anthony Demello, I think you might find them helpful at this time in a situation like this.
"There is yet another illusion - that it is important to be respectable, to be loved and appreciated, to be important. Many say we have a natural urge to be loved and appreciated, to belong. That’s false. Drop this illusion and you will find happiness. We have a natural urge to be free, a natural urge to love, but not to be loved."
Anthony De Mello (2011). “Awareness: Conversations with the Masters”, p.112