>>680578

Most jobs require "good transportation" which already sets me back.

My resume is just for freelance photography that I've done for the past 8 years but I don't have my gear anymore so that's my only skill.

I can talk to people other than my family since I know how retarded they are, there's no drive for me to even talk to them anymore since they don't truly listen and continuing to do so just eats at my soul.

There aren't odd jobs in my area since everyone is living that suburban life or the facade of it so they can do it all themselves. I don't have funds to get a haircut and shave (pic related) so I'm trying to sell some of my electronics that don't work for some spare cash to get bus money and a cut to look more presentable.

My old man avoids real communication so he avoids me like the plague but talks to the dead space about Fox News bullshit. I swear he has dementia or the beginning stages of it. Fucking nigger. I don't even want to think about that old boomer faggot.

I have good typing skills but that's just about it. Wasn't able to gain any skills throughout my youth because of the coddling I got by family so I couldn't do anything without being told to quit for my own good which meant threats to be kicked out just because I wouldn't jump through hoops.

Thanks for the help though. I'll definitely hit the ground running in the morning looking for work again hoping I can get something.

>>680759

I'm real, unfortunately. I ask myself the same thing sometimes. You'd think you'd want to see your children success without extorting them by withholding basic things just to get them to come to a church to make themselves look good.

Depression is real, anon. It really is.

>>680836

West coast by any chance?

>>680759

Let me blow your mind even more.

My godfather/uncle Ben type person in my life passed away when I was a sophomore in HS. I couldn't bear to go to the funeral because he was the only person that listened and actually believed in me (my parents worked long hours so he would pick me up from school). I tried to fill the time during that day by going to a museum with a female friend and had everything planned just to have a good time and positive energy for once. The time she came to my house, my dad opened the door and told her, I couldn't go. Ever since then, she stopped talking to me and avoided me for the rest of my HS life. It drove me crazy, anon. I dove right into grabbing for anything just to feel. Porn was calming to me ever since and it fucked with my entire life with relationships and people. Funny thing that I found a xxx vhs my dad had and he beat the living shit out of me as if brought it from someplace else. My siblings til this day see me as a black sheep just for being honest about everything. I don't get it. I even thought about killing myself after all this multiple times. I'm just really fucked up man. I just want a fresh start and it seems like that's too much to ask.

>>681033

That's why I NEED this whole Q thing to be real and just happen. It'll finally prove to people but me most importantly that I'm not crazy. I've always been the 6th Power Ranger so to speak in every group.

I just need to find peace. Get some land, grow some crop. Just live away from those who can't face their own demons.

Thank you, all of you for seeing me for who I really am. No one does on this planet. I just want my life to be whole. I miss my boy, the love of my life, freedom. God help me.

>>681156

I'm not one to give any advice. Just pray. Calm your mind and your heart. And give your child all the love you can give. I would do anything to see my boy again. It's been years. Just hold him/her close and tell them you love 'em as a million times a day.

>>681208

Thank you bro. I'm going to do that before the day is done. I've never had anyone suggest that before. Definitely appreciate that. Thank you a whole heap. God bless you, anon.