>>7232546
Have you read a "Wheel of Time"? Really long series not worth the time to read if you're not very interested in fantastical fantasy, but in it is the idea of male magic being tainted by evil. So every male who touches the magic eventually goes insane because to do so means you have to bathe yourself in evil which eventually destroys you.
That is how I feel when I walk into Church. Perhaps I'm too judgmental. Almost certainly I'm too judgmental. I don't claim to be perfect, but I can't stand people who wallow in it. It is like the nietzschen idea of ubermench versus the last man.
I dunno. I wish I could.
>>7232559
I'm trying to use my consciousness to spread it. But a single consciousness cannot survive alone. It needs its dual. Without that it is lost and aimless and not living up to its potential. A failure.
>>7232582
Never interested in control.. Never. I want people to do what they will. I want people to live how they will. But I want to live how I will. I am looking for people who want the best for themselves. Who want the best for those around them. I'm just surrounded by people who don't. Who are out for themselves and will undercut you at a moment and use you until you're dried up.
So I walked away. And now i'm trying to find a new path.
Thank you for your words.