Central Texas here. Yes, weather has been really nice lately.
But, I took these photos 2 days ago. What the hell?
Get back to reading scripture daily.
Pray 1 hour daily, on your face, asking God to reveal Himself to you and to lead you in to all truth. It’s what I do.
After about 2 weeks you’re going to exit the matrix.
God speed Anon.
I have an addictive personality as well.
God never said you wouldn’t have trouble; but He did say He would be with you in trouble.
We are swimming upstream anon. There’s no doubt; but we don’t have to do it alone. God is with us and will help us if we let Him.
The enemy (satan) is very real and interested in your destruction. His ability to deceive us far outweighs our own natural ability to fight it. That’s why we need to fight against satan with spiritual weapons. It’s not cool or sexy. It’s work. But, God gives us strength through us seeking Him daily in prayer. It’s really very simple but being consistent is challenging.
Take my prayer suggestion: 1 hour on your face each day. Preferably at the same time. Develop a routine. Focus on worshipping God and asking Him to lead you in to all truth. He will answer your prayer.
God bless you!