No logistical reason to start pissing in your Wheaties, anon.
Nothing in your Concern Fagging post is new.
If you needed to vent that is what it is, so
PUT ON THE ARMOR OF GOD and save yourself from your self inflicted torture.
If you are not an anon (as your post so loudly implies), you have the same option.
In either case, Know that you are loved and have NOT been abandoned by your creator.
Still …. YOU will ultimately be responsible for YOUR own decision.